I was reading my friend Bil Moore’s blog post about being real and it really got me thinking about life and how I’ve acted and ultimately changed over the last 10 years. Coming into a college setting I wasn’t the most confident person and as much as I tried to outwardly portray a certain type of person, I knew in my heart that wasn’t the real me. Especially once I started to gain playing time, I had this idea that I needed to act a certain way, interact with people a certain way and present myself a certain way. Looking back on those years I’m not sure that I let my real identity shine through all the time.
The weird thing about playing sports at a major University is the way that people react and interact with you. Especially when the team you play on has a lot off success. You start to gain a bit of notoriety and people start to look and treat you differently. You begin to feel invincible and that you can almost do whatever you want whenever you want to do it. You’re world turns into a fantasy land and it puts a lot of your core beliefs to the test.
It took me time to fully understand who I am as a person and not just be classified as an athlete. It’s very calming to feel comfortable in your own skin and not be afraid to be yourself in front of other people. We only get one shot at life and it goes by fast, don’t waste time worrying about how other people look at you.